You will never get any truth from a narcissist, no matter how skilled they are at convincing you otherwise. Many of us wish we could read an honest letter from a narcissist, but you won’t find any truth whatsoever.

Narcissists live in a delusion created by their vanity, making them the center of the universe. In their world, nothing is above them, making them the gods of their fabricated reality. To maintain this distorted world, they need constant validation from those around them to prove that it is “real.”

A narcissist will defend their false self and their fabricated reality until their dying day, because it’s the only way they know to live in this world. However, this doesn’t justify any of their behavior, and no one should indulge their fantasies.

Narcissists have become so lost in the labyrinth of their own lies that they can no longer distinguish between truth and fantasy.

Here is a fabricated letter from a narcissist to reveal their true nature behind their false mask.

A Message from a Real Narcissist

Dear Victim,

As a young child, my experience was filled with pain I didn’t understand. All I knew was that I felt ashamed, worthless, rejected, and broken. I hated myself. I felt fundamentally flawed, even to the point of being abandoned by those who cared for me.

Yet, I didn’t feel safe enough to express what I felt. I wasn’t allowed to be sensitive or emotional. I had to suppress that part of myself to survive.

“But it wasn’t enough for me to just hide my vulnerabilities; I had to get rid of them completely.”

I vowed never to be seen as weak or sensitive again. I did what I had to do to get the exact opposite, which is what I desperately wanted.

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I completely abandoned my true self because it was the part responsible for my weakness and vulnerability.

My ego became dominant.

To protect me from my true self forever, my ego had to create a false reality for me to live in. In this reality, I am superior, special, and perfect. I no longer have to deny myself what I desire, nor do I have to feel weak.

But there is nothing real or authentic about me. I am now a false self.

“In my false reality, I am the center of the universe. I am a god.”

I sold my soul for the ability to walk this life without a conscience, which means I can do whatever I want without consequences.

Over the years, I have learned how to feign empathy, compassion, and kindness, but I lack the capacity to genuinely feel any of them.

I may tell you that I love you, but the truth is, I cannot even feel love. It is merely something I know others crave; thus, it has become a valuable tool for me to manipulate and get what I want.

For me, love is about being adored or worshipped. It has nothing to do with you, because in my delusional reality, everything must revolve around me. I am the center of the universe, after all.

In my world, you are merely a pawn I move as I please. I will exploit you for any gain, then discard you like yesterday’s trash. I am fully aware of how this kind of treatment can destroy you, but I simply don’t care.

You cling to the hope that I will change or that I am unaware of what I am doing. The truth is, I know exactly what I am doing, and I will never change.

I am a detached soul, with no purpose other than to fill my inner emptiness.

My false self is a perfect reflection of my reality. What I say, do, and show is the complete opposite of the truth.

To protect myself from my reality (that I am an imperfect and flawed human being), I can never accept anything that contradicts my false reality.

I will project all my ugly and hurtful behaviors onto you because I refuse to acknowledge them. Acknowledging them and taking responsibility for them would mean admitting that my entire fabricated self is nothing but a mask I wear to manipulate those around me.

The truth is, once my ego projects my actions onto you, I see them as absolute truth. You become the abuser who must be eliminated. My ego cannot tolerate any threat to its fabricated existence; therefore, it will turn those threats back on itself and fire.

I will protect my fabricated self until my death because, in my eyes, living the life of that fearful, weak, fragile child is worse than death.

And in order to twist reality to fit my pre-prepared narrative, I will mislead and abuse you until you give in. This is how I tighten my grip on everything to justify my fabricated story.

The truth means nothing to me because I’m against it. I’m just an illusion built on a pyramid of lies. Appearances and impressions are what hold my fragile reality together. Nothing about me is authentic or genuine.

The problem with my false reality is that it isn’t real. For it to have any real existence, I need constant validation from the outside world that confirms it’s real, because I simply can’t accept anything else.

That’s why I crave constant attention (narcissistic sustenance) in all its forms, because only then will my false self survive.

Whether it’s creating drama, faking appearances, or seeking admiration or pity, it all feeds my ego and confirms my reality—that I exist and that I’m special.

You see, since I severed my connection with my true self, a huge black hole has been left in its place. I didn’t expect it.

Now, the only way to avoid falling into the spiral of self-hatred, resentment, despair, and disgust is to keep my false self inflated.

“I’ve become like a drug addict, constantly needing to drain the life force from other healthy souls. Without access to my true self, I can no longer access that life force, which I desperately need to stem the spiral of inner despair.”

But any dose of this energy only provides temporary relief. At my core, I’m an energy predator, always craving more.

But I know you wouldn’t give me your vital energy if you knew my true nature. So, I have to be a devil in disguise, presenting myself as charming and kind.

You must understand that although I may pretend to care for you, I truly don’t. I have neither the ability nor the desire to.

I live in a fabricated world, where I am the master of the game. Everyone and everything in my world exists to serve my interests. I will exploit them to obtain money, resources, sex, recognition, energy, status, and anything else I desire at that moment.

I don’t care if you’re my father, my son, my lover, my friend, or my boss. You’re nothing more than a pawn in my game, used to drain my energy and satisfy my insatiable addiction.

My ultimate goal is to keep you under my control forever, to draw your vital energy from me whenever I need it. The only way for you to escape my torture, abuse, and energy drain is to sever all ties with me completely.

While I don’t want you to leave, it’s the only way you can truly be free of me.

I won’t make it easy for you to escape. I will abuse you, threaten you, make you feel guilty, beg you, blame you, lash out at you, and humiliate you. Because your attempt to leave me is another abandonment, one I cannot tolerate.

Your rejection proves that I am not superior, not perfect; yet, I absolutely refuse to accept that. Therefore, I will try to crush you as punishment for your audacity in revealing this information to me.

I will never change because I don’t want to. I am perfect. There is nothing about myself to change. In fact, if anyone needs to change, it’s you!

I control you to control my entire fabricated reality. This makes me feel powerful and important, like a god, as I imagine myself. Controlling you also means I have a guaranteed source to satisfy my addiction.

But I hate you for it. I hate my desperate need for you to survive. My greatest fear is that you will discover how weak and vulnerable I truly am. I can’t let you realize that I’m the one who needs you, so I turn the tables on the relationship, just as I turn everything else in my life upside down.

I belittle you, I abuse you, I humiliate you, I minimize your experiences, and I manipulate you emotionally to control your perception of reality. I need to strip you of your self-worth and identity until you gradually lose yourself to me.

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I want you to see me as your god, so you willingly surrender your spirit and vital energy to me.

I use intermittent punishments and rewards to psychologically bind you, so you never realize how much I need you to survive.

The truth is, you’ve always been the stronger one, and I the weak one. I’ll never be able to experience any of the light you radiate. I envy you for that, and I hate that I envy you.

No, you’re the one who should envy me!

As long as you stay, you encourage my behavior, and I know your compassionate soul thinks it’s helpful, but it isn’t. The more I protect myself and agree with my illusions, the further I move away from facing my reality.

But let’s face the truth. I don’t want to face my reality because it means taking responsibility for every hurtful word and deed I’ve committed.

It’s a long list of consequences.

Fortunately, I don’t have to face any consequences. There’s no god above me, is there?

If you finally realize and stop encouraging my behavior, I’ll replace you with someone else who does. In fact, I probably already have someone waiting their turn.

Because this is my way, and I’m comfortable with it.

You need to realize that you’ve always been the stronger one, and use that strength to free yourself. Because once I ensnare you, I’ll never let you go willingly.

You cannot fall into the trap of pitying me, because I will use your sympathy against you every single time.

Move beyond the wounds I inflicted within you. Go forth and experience all the love, joy, and perfection I only ever dreamed of, ever since I severed my humanity long ago.

Sincerely,

~ The Narcissist Who Will Drain You to Death