If you’ve ever loved a toxic person, you’ll know how crazy the feelings can be.
It’s magical. he’s crazy. It’s exhausting. It’s twisted. It’s bittersweet. One second you’re on top, the next second you’re on the bottom. Your day depends on this person.
In fact, your entire being depends on this person. Your health and psychology as well.
Do you ask yourself how it is possible to love someone so much?
There are some moments of clear thinking, and in those moments you know they shouldn’t be there.
You shouldn’t be in his insecure arms – arms that are both your haven and your hell.
I embraced this dark kind of love. You take care of it. There is just a glimmer of hope that comes and goes from you like a shadowy friend. She sleeps and breathes with him.
There is no logic. One moment you’re so convinced that things will finally get better, and the next you know you’re doomed.
You begin questioning your sanity. For a moment, you feel blessed, but then you feel cursed.
Do you find yourself thinking things will be different this time, even though you know they won’t?
When you love a toxic person, it feels like an addiction. You know you’ve become addicted.
You can’t escape that thought that hurts in your chest.
You get to a point where you don’t care what happens next, all you have to do is be there for that person.
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You can’t do it even though you hate yourself because you feel like you can’t live without this person.
You make up scenarios in your head every night. Imagine yourself finishing it once and for all.
But then, it all goes away once you’re near him. Your determination and courage disappear. Do you even recognize yourself anymore?
Does it seem to you that when things are good, they are really good? And when it’s bad, is it actually the worst?
He’s nervous. I know you feel drained because I feel drained too. Relationships don’t have to be this difficult.
There will come a time when you get tired of these feelings. You will have to undergo some kind of emotional rehabilitation, but that’s okay.
You will eventually understand that you need help. Of course you will feel drunk, and you will go through different crises.
However, you will survive. You know your battle is about to begin. There will be many casualties in this war against toxic love, but you can win, trust me.
Loving a toxic person can teach you a lot of lessons. If you learn it well, you will become stronger than ever.
You will be the best version of yourself because there will be no one to bring you down.
Remember, you are not weak, you are human. No matter how weak we are, there is so much strength in us.
I hope you find it deep in your heart, and that you can finally heal your heart.
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